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I feel Wicked...

Going back to this pregnant not pregnant thing is killer. From a young age we are taught that missing a period is the first sigh that you are pregnant. So psychologically every time I go to the bathroom and no period yet I get a little hopeful, as stupid as it seems. Between the depression and the kids being here we have had sex like 4 times total in the last month... So that chances are very slim to none... And so when my brain for a second flashes that maybe I'm pregnant, I get pissed at myself for being so damn stupid. I hate this. I hate that my abnormal body that I have come to kinda understand is even more out of whack and abnormal. I have no idea when I will ovulate or even when my period will come... Whine whine whine


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